A snowdrop. Something to look forward to. Hellebore Anna’s Red for the story picture.

A brief and personal note, to explain why I haven’t done very much online these past weeks and months. You haven’t come here to a horticulture focused blog for this – but here goes.

I have depression, have been ill for several months and I think it likely I won’t be back to my old self for a while yet. I’m trying not to set any time limits for my recovery.

This isn’t my first time on this particular merry-go-round though I have had ten good years free from these demons. I have many of the classic symptoms of depression, hostile and negative, but have found an anger in me that pushes against keeping quiet about my illness. When I have had the energy and courage and reached out, not enough, it has been positive and frankly, I need all the help I can get.

You may already be a convert, but challenge the stigma of mental health illness please, talk about it among your friends, family and co-workers. I won’t be reading any comments, for a while at least if indeed I should expect any. Please no negative stuff – I know I am putting my head above the parapet here. Be kind to yourself and to each other.

  • I’ve deleted my Instagram and Twitter accounts, Facebook to is on the way out – they all became distracting but possibly something I will regret. I nearly deleted the blog too but really, really hope that I can come back to it. Like so many things, it once gave me much satisfaction and enjoyment.